Despite what she might think, I am the loved on. I am the favored one. I am the special one. lol

Very bored.....can you tell?

You Know You're From Florida When...

You own at least five pairs of flip flops You know someone who's been struck by lightning You're more scared of the freaks who live down the street than gators Your backyard is sometimes a swamp You're officially sick of Disney You shrug off hurricane warnings You've been permanently blinded by fat men in speedos There are only two seasons - hot and hotter You've drank a flaming alligator. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Florida.

This is really right..surprisingly

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

This is one of the best thing I have read all year:


We the Fans





I heard AJ was drinking again. Who cares? Not us, we are the Backstreet fans. We love AJ no matter what. And we don't believe filthy rumors. Well, Kevin and Brian are married. Why do you still love them? Who cares? Not us, we are the Backstreet fans. We support them for their voices, and we are happy they've found someone to keep them happy. But Nick got his ears pierced. Who cares? Not us, we are the Backstreet fans, we love Nick for always, and we love his sense of style (plus it's kinda sexy). NSYNC is popular now though. Who cares? Not us, we are the Backstreet fans, BSB is always and will always be popular if we have anything to do with it. AJ went into rehab. Who cares? Not us, we are the Backstreet fans. We are happy AJ got himself some help, and we will always support him. Howie has long hair. Who cares? Not us, we are the Backstreet fans. We love his voice and his hair!

Backstreet fans stick by the boys always, don't love them because they're hot, because they're popular, or what they were. We love them because they've given us music and love, and for that, we are always grateful. That's why we vote, we go to concerts, and we defend them. Don't get me wrong, they're hot as heck, but we love them for more than that. And there are some fans that wouldn't love the guys if they were fat or if they were ugly. But true fans, that is not true. Can you call yourself a true fan? I can all the way. And those are the ones the boys need. Sure, we get a little crazy sometimes, but we love them. And you can't say you love them without being a true fan. Because liking them for their looks is not a true fan.

Sometimes I wonder, why do I bother being a true fan? Why do I bother doing all the work I do for them? And last night, when I turned on that video and watched that concert, I remembered why. It's all the little things they do that they have no idea what they're doing. The smoothness of Brian's voice. The slow sexy voice of Kevin. The truly beautiful and amazing voice of AJ. The strong and leading voice of Nick. And who could forget Howie’s soft and loving voice? Put them all together, and you get a sound that you don't want to stop listening to. A sound that pulls at your heart and fills you with love. That's why I'm a true fan. And there are other reasons. The look in their eyes when they say thank you to all their fans. It makes you feel wonderful, and you know they're talking to you. The glances they make at you in a concert, and you know they're making eye contact with you. Their to die for smiles that makes your heart go wild. The love in their voice when they sing. How honest they are to us, their fans. And how they don't get angry at us when we invade their privacy, when we ask for constant autographs, or when they can't even go out to dinner in peace. I promised myself if I ever saw them in person, I'd write a note to them and hand it to them with my phone number and hope they call me because I wouldn't want to take away their time.

All us fans need to think about this. Are you true? And if you are, then a lot of us need to get our acts together and show these boys we love them and they have not lost their true fans to other boybands. That we will be with them always, through rehab, and anything else they may face. I'm talking sell out albums, #1 everyday, and hard work. If you're not up to it, then I don't know why you are a fan or why you call yourself a fan. The only fans those guys need are true ones.

With Love,
Chelsea Roff

Three Wishes

.BSB, N Sync, and Britney Spears were walking down a beach. They came to a bottle and decided to rub it. Of course, Christina Aguilera popped out. She said, "I will give each of you a wish, so that's three wishes in all."

Britney went first, "I'm going to be on the cover of Rolling Stone soon and I want to look really sexy."

Christina nodded and said, "done." Soon Britney's body had lots of curves.

N Sync went next, "We want a a city named after us, with a big wall around it so no one will bother us."

Christina nodded and said, "done." N Sync were put inside their city.

The BSB said, "tell us more about this wall."

"Well, it's fifty feet high, five feet thick, and no one in the city can get out, and no one can get in," she explained.

The BSB smiled. "Fill it with water.”

I'm evil, but this cracked me up.

You know what type of people are retarded? The people that are late. Why do they have to like the same thing as me? Get a life loser. I heard them first and I saw them first. What a wannabe. Now they sullied their music and their name. Get a life. Done

My friends don't update enough. Neither do I. Summer sucks. Why do we look forward to summer? We sit around and do nothing. Summer use to be so fun. Though the time is going by really fast. College is almost upon us. My mom said if the time is going by real fast, that's an indication you are growing up. When I wed somebody, I want to dance to a BSB song. They are so hot. So I was talking to somebody last night, it wasn't fun. You know when you just want somebody to listen, it wasn't happening. I have finally found somebody that can dominate the conversation talking about themselves.

I love Brian's voice. I said I wanted to marry Brian, but I don't think he's really my type. Which is weird considering I don't have a type. It's nice that he's married and has a baby boy, although I think Baylee should be spelled Bailey.

I am resurrecting something that I did a while ago. I tried to look for it, but it was too far back.

20 things I want to do before I die
1. Date somebody famous
2. Marry somebody famous
3. Marry somebody famous
4. Get mentioned in a magazine
5. Have kids
6. Live in a big house
7. Be able to buy expensive clothes
8. Meet BSB
9. Front-row seats in their concert
10. Graduate college summa cum laude
11. Go on vacation somewhere exotic
12. Take my family on a cruise
13. Cut my hair short
14. Learn to figure skate
15. Have sex with at least one BSB member. haha
16. Kiss at least one BSB member. hot
17. Own a nice car
18. Be known for something important
19. Be a well-known accountant
20. Get skinnier

can you tell as you go down my choices are getting shallower? they aren't as important as I want it to be. Although the BSB thing is mucho important. Add one here 21. be happy. Isn't that all we want in life? to be happy. that's all i want. but according to experts, we;ll probably die soon with global warming and the depletion of our natural resources. us shallow people don't care about that. shopping tomorrow. i love aj's and brian's voice. favorite video of all time: i want it that way. watch it. i'm telling you.

i watched laguna beach tonight. i can feel my iq dropping while watching that shit. i hope i never become that shallow. every other word was like, like, like. complete bimbos. everything was so superficial. i want something deep and meaningful. no need to comment. but it would be nice if my friends>/b> updated their journals.

Have you ever wanted to experience the same feelings you had when you were younger? Have you ever went back to the same place but realized that people have moved on?
It happened to me. It's sad. Things have changed. I can't go back. People have left and I'm left with nothing but broken links and unfinished stories. This makes me feel so melancholy. Sigh

STOP HERE if you do not care about the Backstreet Boys. All negative comments about them will be deleted.

So I bought tickets for Section 5, Row AA, Seat 6& 7. Basically they are sucky seats, but not as bad as the lawn ones. I went to concert in shorts, short sleeve shirt and flip flops. Jenn comes out with jeans and high heels. Seriously who does that? I told her she was going to be uncomfortable. The drive there was uneventful, kinda boring. We got there and I was excited. I saw the arena and realized that it would be outside. It was hot. It was really hot. People searched our purse to make sure we didn't have cameras, but some people hid it. In their bra, in their crotch, you name it.

I saw a big sheet that was supposedly going to be passed up to the stage, never happened. Then we went and got our BSB concert shirt. I am so excited. I am wearing it to work tomorrow. I only didn't wear it today because Jenn wore it and I didn't want to look like twins. Skip to opening act.

Kaci Brown is so blonde. She was young. You could tell in the way she talked. Her songs is not that I usually listen to. Her album is called "The Instigator". Okay, I didn't care for her too much. The Click Five was really good. They started getting me excited about the BSB coming out. Amazing. I love their songs. I am going to download them. At 8:45, that was when the real magic happened. That's when they came out. They did "The Call" first, I love them. I screamed and screamed and screamed. I was dancing. I was singing. I was doing everything my adolescent preteen self would have done. I am in love with them. I love Brian. I love Nick. I love Kevin. I love Howie. I love AJ. They epitomize my childhood. Surprisingly I didn't cry when I saw them. Could be because they looked like ants. But the big screen made up for it. I wish I had close seats. Nick went into the audience and this girl wouldn't let him go. I had the most fun that night. They did all my favorite songs. My favorite was "I want it that way" and "incomplete",. everybody was singing with them. it was wonderful. It's so nice to be in a place and have everyone love the same thing as you.

we tried to get an autograph of The Click five, but those security bastards cut the line short. No autograph for me, but at least I got two pictures of two of the members. They are kinda beatlesque. We left dejected but not angry. I noticed a group of people surrounding a gate that obviously housed the tour buses. I ran over there. And within one minute, the door opened. We ran. We bumrushed the bus. It was KEVIN. He was so hot. I tried to take a piture, but I am shitty with taking pictures. So no pic. I saw his face clearly. I am in love. He is just as cute in real life as in the video. Like fine wine.

Ending on a happy note. Love them. Can't wait for their next concert.

Edit: The Click Five did the most awesome thing with their guitars. The Click Five love

I am back from an arduous day of shopping for dorm stuff. I bought some stuff here and there, but I wasn't quite sure of what I had to get. It sucks that my "college correspondent" doesn't answer my calls and doesn't pick up her phone. I guess it would be a good reason to talk to my new roommates and ask for advice. Because I am such a hot girl, I got $20.00 off my purchase at Bed, Bath & Beyond. Yeah, I'm kidding. I got myself a coupon from Linen & Things. Hotness! Then I went to the mall and got a pair of shorts that I wanted. And I bought a book with a 30% discount. I love coupons! They are the best thing in the world. Then we went to Target. No coupon there, my mom didn't even tell me we were going there. Ugh. Bought like 26 hangers.

That's it. I'm done

Do. I command you.

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Bored. don't feel like being random.

Let's talk about my roommates. According to Venita, one of my roommates looks like a skank and refers to my roommates as either the skank or not the skank. However I did find out that the skank does drink but does not smoke. And the non-skank does both. she looked very white in her picture. but i do give her props for emailing me first. but really i probably emailed them first, but they gave the wrong email addresses to UF, so no more props.

i need to go shopping. i need to buy lotion. i need to buy stuff. i need to buy someone a new personality.

ballerinas are anorexic. they are so worried about gaining weight. i watched a movie where this girl refused to eat because she was worried about gaining weight. and wouldn't eat in public because she thought everyone was staring at her. ballerinas are unlucky though, they are constantly surrounded by these guys that worry about their weight and wear pants that outline their genetalia. and they mostly are gay too.

random. very random. i am wearing a melon colored tank top. and shorts. hot. no socks. thanks. should be long enough for V. audi.

Came back from the movies. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was weird. Johnny Depp is so hot though, even though he reminded me of Michael Jackson. Afterwards, by myself I went to Denny's. The food come so much faster when you're alone. It was really good. But then I ate it too fast, like always. Then I went to Walgreen's to pick up my medicine. The pharmacist is the stupidest person EVER. I seriously don't know how she passed the classes taht she did. Ugh..she is so ugly too.

Came home and Vivian told me that Jenn is sleeping. Right.. 2 hours later. Just right before I start updating my LJ. She carries out the phone with the wires and plugs it into the other line. I knew she wasn't asleep. The funniest part is she came only came out at 12 because she "thinks" our weekend minutes end at 12. But in fact, it ends at 7am. Loser.

I just noticed something..I play the Hope song 240 times. Wow..it cracked me up. I realized something, I can't depend on other people for happiness. Shopping today by myself and smelling good food made be happy. Life's simple pleasure.

Things I don't want to be known as:
-Slut
-Whore
-Clingy
-Fat
-Ugly
-Hoe

the list goes on...but my brain ran dry. Anyways. I hope everybody had a good 4th of July. Mine didn't suck, although I was targeted by fireworks debris. Everyone is out doing something but me. I got so dizzy today. For the first time ever, I cleaned my tub. I think I got too close to the chemicals, I was really dizzy. And I got really hungry. But the food sucked, so I don't feel that much better.

I'm sick of Avril Lavigne. Time for some Spice Girls. I bought some hot earrings today. What else? Nothing else. out.

Worst shopping experience ever! I never thought shopping could be that bad. I went down to Miami or somewhere around there to shop at these places. Maybe it was the layout or it could be because there was nobody there. I felt like I was in Hong Kong again or China. I heard the most awful noise when I was walking down a deserted hall. someone was clapping. You guys probably don't understand this, but when i was in China the people would clap and clap to get your attention and come to their shop. It got so annoying.

SO for the first time ever, we left there and we didn't buy one single thing. Oh another thing that was that instead of the peoople in the stores talking cantonese, they were only speaking spanish. I wanted to go to Dolphin Mall, but we didn;t. Came home and watched mroe episodes of Jewel in the Palace. The sea part was so endearing. i'm out

I just simply felt I have to talk and talk about my feelings.

I feel sometimes I alienate people with my feelings and my thinkings. They find my weird, cold-hearted, and mean. But I realize I don't care. If you knew this about me, would you still be my friend? I am shallow. I have conflicting feelings about everything. I am indecisive, lazy, gossipy. Through and through I think I am a good person.

I just want to get out of this situation that I'm in. I want to get away from this place. I want to start anew. It is so depressing now. I don't talk anymore, well not to her. I need a new perspective of the world. I need someone to influence to think differently. I want different interests. Wow..this is getting so weird. This is reminding me of Kevin's entries.

I want to dress differently. I want to be a new person. I want to change. I'm sick of my hair. I want something different.

I am through being frustrated and getting disappointed. You know what's the way around it? Answer: Not caring. Screw yourself over. I don't care. I tried, at least I can say that. You don't listen to me anyways. You don't listen to the parents anyways. You made mom cry.

On a happier note I read something funny today: oh, my favorite thing anyone has ever recalled about me, thanks anna... "I remember you lending me a magazine about tranvestites."
-Keren

I love love stories. I love how the story accumulates to this one point. I love the subtle glances that they give each other. I am willing to sit through 70 episodies to see these little gestures. I am only doing this because I know they are ending up together, otherwise I probably won't be watching it. The lead girl isn't really that pretty. She's like 31! The guy is hot, but he probably did plastic surgery. It's very popular over there. 3:20 am in the morning, I'm doing this.

( Pictures of the people I'm talking about )

I have lost contact with almost everybody. I haven't talked to anybody from school, excluding my close friends and the people online. I am a lousy KIT person. 10 years from now, I think I will open my yearbook and call all the numbers on there. I probably won't. But it sounds cool. Without school, there are so much less things to talk about. I don't think I have met anyone new in awhile. But I guess that's what college is for.

I want chicken wings. The one from Publix. I am determined to make this a long entry. I have nothing else to do. It's nearly 2am in the morning. Two night ago, I slept at nearly 4am for no reason. Of course no one was on to witness it. But what they hey, you guys were probably sleeping. I need a late night person to talk to. But I usually take this time to reply to messages. I probably have such bad bags underneath my eyes.

I have surpressed feelings. I don't always tell people what I think about them. I just really hate confrontation. Nothing comes out of it. Except hurt feelings and guilt. But there are rare times when I get pissed enough and say too much. I call Jenn a "slut". She deserved it.

I want to go out. I want to wear my new red dress. I want to go to the mall again and buy necklaces and stuff. I have stopped wearing my class ring. I am trying to get rid of the tan. It's coming along. There is something seriously wrong with the weather. It won't stop raining. Floods are happening everywhere. I was watching chinese news and it had footage of the flood in China, it was bad

I wish I lived in Hong Kong. They are so free there. They have so much to do there. I love their subway. It's clean. And it has english, so I know where I am going. Their clothes are cheaper. But too bad the style doesn;t suit me.

I want a new haircut. Something that makes me look older. Maybe dye my hair one more time. But I hate the smell of chemicals in my hair. You can tell I am just rambling now. I am stopping.....now.

I went shopping again. I bought a dress. I don't know why, I have no where to wear it too. But the 50% suckered me in. But the stupid lady at the register tried to make me pay full price for it. They should have hired me. Maybe they shouldn't have. If they did, I wouldn't be having this last relaxing summer before I go to college.

Venita wants to go running. I see myself running in the other direction. I am not a runner. I should run. But I have cramps, so I shouldn't. Yeah, good reason. So I've been watching Jewel in the Palace very slowly. They only show one episode a day and none on weekends. I am never going to finish it, I think I might have to borrow it from somebody or buy it. It sucks to not have somebody that watches asian series like I do.

At least I have Kristina with me to watch Veronica Mars. I am going to need somebody to watch Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy. I can't wait for college. The small dorm rooms, the thousands of people I'm not going to know, freedom. Yeah, sounds good.

Crash is a really good movie. I probably wouldn't have seen it, but it was a really good movie. It put a perspective on racism. And Ludacris was really funny. Last night was just full of drama.

After the movies on the way home, I got lost. Michelle told me to keep on going straight. 10 minutes later, guess what I see? Aventura Mall. I went in a circle. lol. That was the most psychothic thing ever. The weirdest thing was that we didn't eat. Us heifers didn't eat. We must have been sick.

So Happy Father's Day to everybody. We are taking out dad out eating tonight and we will be suffering. That is because we are going to a karaoke place and these people have some misguided notions that they can sing. RIGHT..

Aren;t you glad another holiday is among us? Because you know about the sales taht come right after it. More clothes for me. So Jenn is leaving in 6 days, I'm sad. But I think Jenn just needs to be away from here right now. She does. And I think I need to visit her, so i can go shopping up there.